This post is dedicated to Clomipramine, without which I would be hoarding one hundred times more than I do currently.
It helps with all sorts of stuff I previously couldn't let go of at all.
Hoarding remains a daily fight but today, I won an internal battle.
Having neglected the various messes I've made on the Internet (most people call them websites), I decided to update some PHP/MySQL scripts I have installed on various sites.
I backed up the folder from the web. I backed up a MySQL database from the web. I deleted the folder and uploaded the current version of the script in question. With my database backed up, there should have been no loss of information.
Except there was. I backed up the WRONG MySQL DATABASE!!! NO!!!
I ran the script installer before I realized my mistake.
All of those posts: gone. Gone, gone, gone.
Writing about it makes me a little nervous, yet I still declare this a victory because this did not affect me the way it would have pre-Clomipramine. Those posts were from 2005. I'm a HOARDER. I probably have that shit backed up on my external hard drive.
And if I don't, so what?
So I thank you, Clomipramine. It's nice to know you work.
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